Every countless dreams, nothing has changed. I always think about you and it's the only thing i can do. Months roll by but you're still on my mind. I just can't seem to let you go. I need to let you know that each and everyday makes my heart beat fast. I'm afraid that i'll forget how to breathe. Every step you take and every move you make, i don't know why i get so nervous and weak. You're all i wanted, i think. Well, someday i might have the strength to unfold my secretive soul but will you be able accept my heart? That's the question and i hope i won't be disappointed to hear the answer. But i keep on feeling a rejection. Damn.. My emotions gave me the feelings to keep my confession inside.
I know you only think of me as a stranger. I want you as something more. I mean more than just a friend. I want to convince your heart to open your closed door but i guess it's impossible. Tears run down my cheek as i fall down on my knees. I cried endlessly at night because i'm too scared that you'd say goodbye. How can i make you see? You're my cloud up in the sky, i hear your voices around me. When my hope is gone, i always felt you right next to me. No matter how far you are from me, it feels so close. I hope one day, my days will be bright as the sun and i know i'll survive so, i just have to put my trust beyond the sky.

For now, all i can do is wait. :)

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You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.
'cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus]

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

-by Michael Buble

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Especially for you.
I wanna let you know what i was going through. All the time we were apart, i thought of you. You were in my heart, but love never changed. I still feel the same.
Especially for you.
I wanna tell you i was feeling that way too. And if dreams were wings, you know, it would've flown to you. To be where you are. No matter how far, and now that i'm next to you.
No more dreaming about tomorrow. Forget the lonliness and the sorrow. I've gotta say, it's all because of you and now we're back together. I wanna show you that my heart is true. And all the love i have is especially for you.
Especially for you.
I wanna tell you, you mean all the world to me. How i'm searching that the love was meant to be.
You changed my life. You showed me the way and now that i'm next to you. I've waited long enough to find you. I wanna put all the hurt behind you and i wanna bring out all the love inside you. =)

-everytime i hear this song, you came into my mind. i'm stuck. Thinking of you is a must and there ain't no other way to make me forget about you. Everyday, there's some things that saddens me but then, i saw you or when i start to think about you, i'll forget all about it and smile. I think about you and i dream about you all the time. :)
There are many things that i would like to say to you but i don't know how. Knowing that you like someone breaks my heart but i won't give up on you. I don't know when this will end but i hope it goes on and on until my last day on earth.
I don't care how long but i never felt nothing in the world like this before. So, baby i'll wait for you even if it takes the rest of my life. ;)
Oh well, this is my story. I can't hold it anymore in my heart. Here i stand, there ain't nothin' more that i can say. Except that, you're stuck in my head like a melody. A melody that was meant to finish my duet and completes 'our' song. But, who am i kiddin'? This song will never be complete. Maybe some day, we'll never know.
Anyway, here we go. I miss you, i love you and thank you for making me smile everyday. :)

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*sighs*
That perfect eyes, perfect smile plus that dimples of yours. Some people want everything but i don't want nothing at all. Just you to complete my everyday. Your smile brightens my life. I'm speechless, head over heels at the moment. I can't get you out of my mind. It's just so hard to believe what i'm feeling right now isn't just a dream. I'm just lucky to have a crush on you, i think. It's weird though. I don't even know when it starts. The best day was the first time i saw you, i was stunned by your first sight. Thank you for that. ;)
Cheetos had been the no.1 in my heart but it had been replaced by you lately. I've always treasure your smile in my heart-chest.
You're perfect for me. I must've been out of my mind.
Daymnn..i think i'm crazy right now. Who am i to stop you from smiling? I see you everywhere i go, everywhere i turn, even when i'm studying. Near, far, i can recognize you that instant. So weird. Out of all the people i see, guess who shines the most? You! Hahh! Maynn, what's happening to me? Unexpected, what you did to my heart. Maybe this is just a crush and it'll be over soon, but if it won't go away, i'm sorry that i won't be able let go.
Your image keeps on popping into my mind every now and then. Don't ask me why 'cause i don't even know why. :)
What should i do?
My god..i think i should stop now..only god knows what will happen next if i don't stop talking gibberish.

I'll see youu when i see youu, my precious crush. :D

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Shit. So little time. School starts tomorrow. &i haven't finish my homework;
Accounting - goodwill project/done
Gp - gm food/done
Maths - pyp,i think/not done
Business - past year/not done

I've just realised. BANYAK LAGII!!

if ku sambung cuti sendiri, makin tia ku malas. Aaahhh! Sudahlahhh..
I have to focus on my studies..for real..

Ohh, why didn't you tell me? I don't know what to say anymore, so, i will shut up.

Labels: Hearts, School

I miss youu. It hurts when it happens. It's all because of you. It's not easy for me to forget our sweet memories. It's your call, i've done my part. Just this once, listen to my heart. I know i'm a fool but, so what? I ain't gonna cry because of you. A walk in the water reflects your eyes looking at me and i catch a glimpse of heaven. I wanna be inside your heaven but then, you walked away. When i'm with you, butterflies. I wanna cater to you on your special day which is five days after mine. Making you my lover is out of the list, i guess. Lies, i hate, you hate. Is it really over between us two? I don't want to think about it. I'm a stupid coward if i ask you to come back. I think i am a barrier that separates you and her. I wish i was a flowerpot in your house so that i can always be by your side. When you believe, we were strangers, but here we stand, at the beginning. Do you know this will happen? Someday we'll know. What should i do, i can't even talk straight?

Cinta ini membunuhku. Everywhere i go, i want nobody but you. After all, we're only human. Hurt instead of healing. You'll go far, so just live your life. Our love in this life seems to be an issue. It's just the same script, but different cast. I don't wanna try to move on, but i guess i'll have to. Inilah saat terakhir aku merinduimu. It'll tear up my heart and i'll feel the pain. But tonight will be the last night i'll fall for you. Semusim telah ku lalui tanpa dirimu. Semuanya telah terjadi dan cintaku telah pergi. I'll be saying the three words later for the last time. I'll take a bow and backed off. I'm afraid that my heart will go on and on. No one else comes close to you, no one makes me feel the way you do because you are so special to me. This is dangerous. I better stop 'cause my head hurts a lot.

For the last time, it'll end tonight. I guess i won't say these words again after tonight but i can't make any promises.

I love you, and goodbye. :)

Labels: Hearts, last goodbye

We do almost everything that lovers do
And that’s why it’s hard, just to be friends with you
Every time your heart is broken by the fool
I want you to know that it hurts me too
It’s hard to wipe your tears away
Knowing that you should be with me
Now tell me why

Why? why are we still friends
When everything says
We should be more than we are
And tell me why every time I find
Someone that I like
We always end up just being friends

I would hate for you to find somebody new
Who you really love, cause it would mean losing you
But am I a fool not to say
If I’m always scared I’ll lose you anyway
Somehow somewhere I’ve got to choose
No matter if it’s win or lose
Now tell me why

I don’t wanna be like your sister
I don’t wanna be your best friend
I only wanna be your lover
When will this end
If I told you that I wanna be in your life
Then you could be the man in mine

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Feeling sorrow for all the things you had to steal and borrow.
Bring back the days we had before tomorrow
relapse and then collapse into yourself once more.

Waiting for this life to change seems like it's taking me forever
and i can't hold on.
This light is breaking into the day.
Again, into the day again.

Void i can't fill.
The doctor tells me to relax and stand still.
Prescribes me a new pill to quell my anger.
Wish i could make you pull yourself up off the floor.

Take time to contemplate who you are and where you want to go.

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Stupid is the word. I can't stop myself from loving you. I've tried but i can't. I thought that you're just a friend and it's okay if you just leave me but i don't think i can face the fact when you left me later. This is what i felt right now. I don't even know when it started. I thought it'll work but it seems like you gave up on me before we even started. Should i move on and ignore this stupid feeling? Or should i be ready for you to say no? Or should i just stay with this shit until you accept me? I don't even know why i posted this shit.

Labels: Hearts